2009년 2월 8일 일요일
Recently i most like the fancy world than real world..
Maybe at there i can find the sense of security..
I also can feel some of you are caring on me...
I will never feel more scare and lone at there..
Opposite, i hate the real world so much..
Why i need to face all the cruel problems..
Why i need to pretend myself..
Why i cant to be the real one of me!!
Why i have to care the other people feelings..
Why i cant be selfish to treat nice for myself..
Why i want to treat nice to my friends??
Why my friends need to pretend themselves in front of me!!
Why?Why?Why?Why............................
Why you all treat the cruel to me...
I hate all of you so much...
Why want to leave me alone at the real world..
Why i cant share with you of all my happiness and sadness...
Why i just can meet with you in the fancy world...
Why i just see your smile in there....
Why we cant be more happy in the real world...
I'm sorry to make many troubles to you..
I'm sorry too for always make you cant be stay in silent...
Sometimes i hate myself too..
As i don't like to face the real world...
I have to choice stay in the fancy world..
Many things i cant make decision..
You know i am so caring on "PARTNER" this word..
This is because i thirst for a prefect Family and a perfect Lover..
Many times they tell me don't trust the "PERFECT LOVE"..
They know I'm the stupid as i will fall in love forever..
Haha...so idiot of myself..
I will try my best to forget what is the feeling of love..
This is because i do not have the qualification to ask for perfect love..
So that i will try my best to do my work now!
That is study hard for my future...
Why our human need to face many complicates things..
Why the God can be so clever to test all of us can pass of the test not!
I just can say i will be fail in the test as i do not have many energy again..
So i hope everyone can support me..
Neither you are enemy or my friends..
I can stay without all of love besides family love..
That is most important to me..
Without the supporting of them i will die...
They are starting points of my life..
Erm..How my feeling now..
That is complicated for myself...
Yer............I want be crazy!!
S*ck..What The Bull Sh*t...
Pause My MUSIC.
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